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Thank You for Abusing Me by iluvsmiles23, literature

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Thank You for Abusing Me

A letter to my mental abuser. You loved me. You loved me so much, and all you wanted the best for me and my daughter. You wanted me to go to school. And would remind me that I was lazy if I had forgotten to do my homework while you were at work, because I'd been too preoccupied with taking care of my daughter, so I'd forgotten. I was lazy. You were right. You wanted me to work. And reminded me day after day that I was unmotivated when I couldn't find a job after a week of searching. And that I must be stupid because my resume wasn't perfect. And I'd thank you for making me come to those realizations, even after doing 20 job applications an

To the Boy I Loved Twice by iluvsmiles23, literature

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To the Boy I Loved Twice

I wish I could explain your eyes And how the sound of your voice gives me butterflies How your smile makes my heart skip a beat And how every time I'm with you I feel complete You're so silly and you're you're so nice And you're the boy I fell in love with twice Now that I have you again, I can't let you go Even after you understand how I love you so I swear to stand by your side through the heart of each storm And I'll even hold the umbrella to keep us warm {I love you more than time And I love you more than love I love you more than money And the million stars above Before you ever touched me I'd never truly been touched And before yo

Respect by iluvsmiles23, literature

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Respect

The pain in my heart Matches the anger in your eyes I don't know what I did wrong I only try to do right The emptiness of my stomach Matches the fire in your voice Some respect is all I ask For the rudeness to fade The tears running down my cheek Match the sternness of your words I am a grown woman of twenty years And yet I feel like a child of three The hurt deep inside my chest Matches the rage in your face Help me to understand your rage Help me out of this cage

Protector by iluvsmiles23, literature

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Protector

You make my dreams Come true every day When I see that smile On my daughter's face A tickle fight Is just what she needs When anger or sadness Has taken place A hug in the darkness When she's feeling scared Makes my heart light up I'm completely unprepared For the happiness in her eyes For the love in her heart For the hugs and the tickles For the tears wiped away You've got this, my love You're learning every day To be my baby's protector From anything that comes her way

Her Beautiful Hand by iluvsmiles23, literature

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Her Beautiful Hand

The pain in her golden brown eyes As she cries out for her mamma As she screams for someone to help her Is enough to make me fall to my knees And the knowledge that it could have been prevented Makes the tears pour out of my eyes Her pain was never warranted This torture should never have been had Her little hand Was once so perfect Once so beautiful And now completely burned Her love for fire once was great And now the sight of one bright flame Makes her fears come alive It makes her scream and cry The pain my daughter is under Is heart-wrenchingly sad The brutality that a flame caused her Made my strong little girl become like porcelain

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Protector by iluvsmiles23, literature

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Her Beautiful Hand by iluvsmiles23, literature

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Her Beautiful Hand

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Addiction by iluvsmiles23, literature

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Addiction

The addict inside me Wants the addict inside you I want you to be my ecstasy I need to feel this melody The addict inside me Wants the addict inside you You get me high on your voice You get me so high on life The addict inside me Wants the addict inside you To become your favorite addiction To become your favorite drug The addict inside me Wants the addict inside you To pursue this addiction But it may be a catastrophe The addict deep inside me.. Well, It's secretly already addicted to you

Black Sheep Lad by iluvsmiles23, literature

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Black Sheep Lad

Once upon a time There was a lad Of the age fourteen He searched for comfort From his friends and family And yet none came Nobody even dared bat an eye Rarely did someone care When he talked of death to he So he wrote them something rash It talked of his death Said he had died of a lonely heart He had written his own obituary And posted it up For everyone to see The boy's family filled with woe His friends showed their tears And only he knew the truth And suddenly they cared The boy laughed to himself Realization hitting him None of these people were friends They'd neglected him before this What was different now? So he stood up And l

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Her Beautiful Hand by iluvsmiles23, literature

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broken fever by learningtobefree, literature

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broken fever

the first time a boy smoked too many cigarettes because of me, he became a man. he coughed my blood into his palms, tasted my iron & grit, his tongue finally learned the inside of my body. he clutched his chest and felt only my heart- beat. the pulse of a moving car is one akin to racing cattle or maybe just a fever the moment before its break. i do not know what it means to break; only to burn out like a brilliant star, or just another addict’s mistake.

bed sheets hold more than bodies by learningtobefree, literature

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bed sheets hold more than bodies

i engraved the curve of my fingernails into his shoulder blades, his tongue sweat with lust. we touched, real this time. linens are scrapbooks: snapshots of midnight and kush smoke and breathing speech. i cried oceans for lips that flowed like rivers. i moved mountains for men who were often obstacles of their own. uncut grass and dusty mattresses, warm liquor and bruises. someone else's shadow is not for hiding behind. my mother mistook me for chastity, men mistook me for a chalice; both drank me dry. i took for granted the time i had another body next to mine and now i realize his absence with startling certainty.

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Artist // Hobbyist // Other

Feb 28
United States
Deviant for 12 years
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My name is Ashlynn Dennison.
I have a daughter, Melody Owen.
She's my whole world, my whole life.

I write poetry, though I wouldn't say I'm very good.
Others could say I am.

Without poetry, I would be filled with emotions, and unable to unleash them properly.
I respect peotry, literature, drawings, digital art, etc.
Any way to let your emotions out in a proper way, and I respect it.

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A7X

Favourite Writers

Gabriel Owen

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Life itself

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iluvsmiles23

May 18, 2015

Life is what you make it, so make it worth it. 💕

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iluvsmiles23

Dec 19, 2011

To Every Guy Out There

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♥ To every guy that said, "Sex can wait"... ♥ To every guy that said, "You're beautiful"... ♥ To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her... ♥ To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down... ♥ To every guy who has given her flowers just because that's how he rolls... ♥ To every guy that said he would die for her... ♥ To every guy that really would... ♥ To every guy that did what she wanted to die for... ♥ To every guy that cried in front of her... ♥ To every guy that she cried in front of... ♥ To every guy that holds